So as you can see we only have a few months left before our wedding, but we still have a lot to do. So, so many little things. But the main thing that we've been stressing about is money. Last month our old roommate moved out and we had planned on having someone else move in but at the last minute that person kind of bailed on us. Having roommates leading up to the wedding was helping save money for it, but now that we won't have one for the next 3 months we're kind of freaking out about whether or not we're going to be able to save enough. Needless to say, we kind of got screwed over, but we're working on figuring it out.
I've been stressing majorly about all of this along with the fact that there's still a lot to get done, but the other day I got in my car and decided to play my wedding playlist on my drive up to Salem. This is actually a playlist I made before Josh even proposed and we had already decided all of the music that we wanted played and sung at our wedding. I listened to all the songs. The processional, the song that I'll walk down the aisle to, the song that will be sung during the ceremony, our first dance, my father daughter dance... all of them. I just sat and listened, of course cried a little, and realized that this is what my wedding is really about. It doesn't matter if everything is perfect... it doesn't matter if everything I wanted isn't there because we can't afford it, what matters is that I'm marrying the love of my life and that what brought us together, music, is playing such a big role in our wedding.
That's the part that I started planning months, maybe even a year, before I was even engaged, and sometimes I just need to remember to listen to those songs to bring me back and remind me of why I'm doing all of this work. It's not about the money, it's not about the food or the flowers, it's about us, and the promise we will make to each other that day in front of all of the people we care most about.
We have a a saying hung on our wall in our living room that reads, "Love is a friendship set to music", and in our case, that's precisely what it is : )
